More randomness, though not as perky...

Life is just full of the unexpected. One thing you never really expect is disappointment. But I guess that's why it's disappointment, because you didn't expect it. It didn't meet your expectations or your assumptions, right. Anywho, disappointment is painful. Or when you receive information that doesn't make you happy, but makes you feel deceived and alone. Life is full of this up and down business. It depends on how you handle it. Will you get angry? Will you swear off the world? Will you hole up and never let it go? Or will you give it to God and release it to Him, knowing that He has a plan in mind specifically for you?
I've had ever so many disappointments and sometimes it's as though my world has ended and I don't know what I will ever do with myself. I feel burdened and betrayed. But I've given it all to God knowing that He has a plan and whatever it was that I thought I needed/wanted at the time, will give way to greater things. The experience was perhaps a tool for growth or for lessons which will travel with you far longer than the desire or the disappointment ever will. Though I feel very close with God, there are still things I thought were right, notions or thought patterns, whatever, which came to clarity that it was not to be so. Dreams can fail you or die because the chance has gone past or you've grown out of it. But there's always hope. Hope for something better and for the plans God has yet to unfold. I feel so grown, yet the time for mourning is not yet over. In fact, it has probably just begun.