Being on Lost

Hurley You scored 72% kindness, 39% courage, 42% seedy past, and 64% secretiveness!

"For the record, my belt HAS dropped a notch. I'm a big guy. It's gonna be a while before you're going to want to give me a piggy back ride." Dude, you are Hurley. You are a kind soul with some terrible luck. While you're always lending a helping hand, you're not exactly the bravest guy on the island. What you do is even more important - keep people entertained. The only problem you've got is that whole jinxed numbers thing. You're so secretive, no one on the island even knows that you're a multimillionaire! Let it out, dude. There's no use trying to keep it all bottled up inside, man. Your polar opposite is: Jin. You are similar to: Claire and Sun.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 76% on kindness You scored higher than 36% on courage You scored higher than 66% on seedy past You scored higher than 79% on secretiveness

Link: The Which Lost Character Are You Test written by ack_attack on Ok Cupid

hmmm

man, these past few days have been hard. I have a bad attitude that keeps coming round. I get rid of it and than it comes back. I think I'm just feeling sorry for myself. Do you ever feel like the world owes you something. I keep giving it to God and sorting it out. It really frustrates me b/c I don't want this to be continually happening. I keep saying stuff and am like, "man, I shouldn't have said that. I am a jerk/stupid-head/mrr." I feel like a poo. I guess I'm just insecure right now. Could be tiredness. But this attitude is not positive or constructive.
It's almost like what Paul says when he talks about how what he wants to do he doesn't do and what he doesn't want to do, he does. I feel like I'm sinning all of the time, or am at least aware of it all the time. Than I apologize to ppl for being dumb and they are like, "oh, were you having a hard time?" so even though it's all internal and ppl can't see it, do I still apologize? what do I do? i want ppl to know so that they know what's going on in my life but I don't want to sound like I am complaining or whatever, y'know? man, sometimes it sucks being me, well, certain aspects of it anyways. Well, I got a fork stuck in my finger while I was putting away silverware. I made a makeshift bandaid out of masking tape and a paper towel. It's always a good cover. Yeah. I have alot of homework to do, that includes the finance study I am doing at the church I attend out here. It's gonna be good I think. I will learn how to properly budget and save and all that. So I am excited. My devo is just going through how to trust God and faithfulness right now. It changes every week (four week study). So I am enjoying that as well.
Do you ever feel like you are just waiting for God to do something in your life? I know that He is doing something right now, but just like you are living each day for Him, going through your trials, yet waiting for what He has planned for you? Does that make any sense? Well, on that note, I am falling asleep over here. Happy Sunday! Love and miss all of you!

down the winding path

Hey hey! My, my. I am a bit tired. Ready for bed, but wanting to watch a movie...eh, not sure what to do. I have to get up around 5am tomorrow, so the best thing to do would be to go straight to bed. But, I may be undisciplined tonight. Maybe. Things here are going well. I washed alot of dished tonight. Pray for my dad, he's been out of work for about 2 months now. He's getting a bit flustered I think. Two of my sisters and my mom recently broke up with their boyfriends and Laureen is having a bit of a rough time in Cali. So, here I am. Washing dishes, scrubbing carpets, and baking cookies. Only the Lord knows, eh?
We went on a staff retreat to Colorado Monday through Wednesday. It was good. I saw some elk, went running, visited a camp, climbed up a hill (little did we know we weren't supposed to...=0), and did a few other things. I got to make the pastries for breakfasts and that was fun and educational. Got back and started work right away. Had to get a half day in. Today is more than happy to be a "full" day. Anything 8+ hours. Man, I have alot of blisters on my hands. Mrr.
Wow. I feel boring. It's as if the life is gone from me almost. I really enjoy being here, but I feel so stagnate and mrrmrr. I don't know. I need to read more Bible. I read Proverbs 22 this morning. It was so good. I just wanted to read more and more. I am excited about my new devo study, but I don't know if I am going to get "the most" out of it. It wants you to listen to certain songs and read certain material along with your Bible reading and such. But I don't have the cd. I am thinking of just going on SoundandSpirit and listening to it there...may be worth it. I want to get the most out of it.
Finally brought my bass in to get fixed. Ran quite a few errands that day. Whew! Anywho.Colorado was beautiful. I saw the sun rise over the mountains Wednesday morning when I went out on my run. I just looked at them and thought, "these can't be real." It's craziness. It was so beautiful. the weather during the day was perfect, a bit chilly at night, but wonderful. The town was small, yet charming and touristy, which I wasn't particularly fond of, but it was cute. The camp I went to left me in awe. It was the YMCA of the Rockies and it has like 117 (?) cabins and 11 hotel-style buildings and a very large kitchen. Apparently they are so popular that they have to turn ppl away! I'm glad we're not that big. But I do love the culture there. They have ppl from Sweden, Mexico, Italy, wherever! It was pretty neat. I loved being immersed and relaxing in something that I could learn from. I love learning. God is so good to me. I just pray everyday to be more like His Son and to learn from my mistakes and to just be the best I can through Him. Cause I'm pretty horrid most of the time if left on my own. I miss you guys. I love being here though and look forward to what God has in store for me! I know it's going to be something great.

Question: now off the serious-seriousness. I was thinking about this and was wondering what you thought or know of this word: Pursue.
One young lady here is courting a gentleman and the ladies in our vehicle (on the way up to CO) asked what he was doing to pursue her. Which got me wondering, what does it mean to pursue someone? What does that look like? Is it different if a guy is pursuing a girl than when a girl is pursuing a guy? Or is it the same mannerisms/actions just reversed roles?
I've seen some pretty sticky situations when the girl pursues the guy, but can't quite get a strong pic of what either looks like. so let me know, I'd be interested to find out what y'all think about it.

yeah...life is grand...?

Well, I am still at "work". I don't know what to call this place...I love it and it seemingly is my prison. I have been here since 6am...I want to go home. I am waiting for sticky buns to cool...that almost sounds derogitory (sp?), eh? Anyway, I am tired and my "boss" (he doesn't like me to call him that)...said that I looked tired. So I looked in the mirror, and I look tired. I have quite a few new poems to put on my other blogsite. I forgot to bring them...maybe subconsciously I didn't want to bring them, maybe I knew there really wouldn't be time.
Anyhow, we leave for Colorado (Ensenada..?) at 10am. I made them breakfast. Hopefully they like it cause that's why I am still here, otherwise I would have left at 4pm. That would have been nice, but that's okay. I liked baking and working my vocal chords. I bought the Phantom of the Opera cd, the new one, and oh, I really like it. I can't sing as high as Ms. Rossum, but I can hold my own...tomorrow I will have no voice for saying that. I do find that my voice is best when I am singing to the Lord. I know that sounds corny, but it's true. I don't mind.
I finished up my back bedroom, it's a study/hang-out/music room. I like it. It makes me happy. I like the peeps I work with. All the full-time staff are pretty cool and the retirees as well. I ate over at one of the retirees house's (trailor) this last week and my "boss" is going to have me and the other two ppl my age (Angela and Toby) come over on Monday nights for suppers- yay, no cooking! That is exciting.
School is good. I am thoroughly enjoying the classes and the teachers are pretty cool. Well. I am tired, so I going to go wrap the cinn. buns and scoot. Mrr.

update on the nebraska-husker wannabe

Hey y'all! I am doing well! My birthday was on Monday, my "boss's" family fed me pie and ice cream. I am currently done working and I have a tender hand from vacuuming the whole ground floor, well almost all of it. I also am excited about a new duster I bought from Wal-Mart. It has an extendable handle and it's bright blue! So, that's my exciting news...more to come later, eh? Miss you all! Leave me an update! Pray for the camp, that there will be unity and for me, cause I suck and I'm having trouble with it.