C.S. Lewis steal!

I must say that it took a while to finally be able to post. Not sure why, but this just hasn't been working the past couple of days. So, today I bought a compilation of C.S. Lewis's books! Get this: the Screwtape Letters, The Great Divorce, Miracles, The Case for Christianity, and Christian Behavior...all in one handy-dandy book! $4! What a steal! Yes, I am blessed! Jesus loves me lots...=) Anywho...I am tired and excited and nervous and just handed in my app for camp this summer, so hopefully will get a reply back soon! yeah...Mrr! I think I'm gonna go, but I will leave you with this: Cal MacFarlane is an amazing teacher with such a God-filled, God-centered heart and passion. He's just so great. Thanks friends! Peace.

Water is good for you...

Carpe Diem - Seize the day.
Live it up. Make it yours, but make yours God's. Ah life! Breathe in the air and run through puddles. It's so great. God has so much to teach us.
These are things I learned or relearned yesterday:
"You're not alone, so don't pretend to be."
Love is okay, even when it's with someone you don't expect.
That it's best to let things go.
That it's not good to hold on to anything. (sounds iffy...)
Acting like a kid is fun and exhilerating and freeing.
Patience is a virtue.
Being afraid doesn't mean you lack courage, but
Just because you are brave doesn't mean you're alright.
Violence is never okay.
Change is good.
Peace is nice.
Lying makes everything worse.
Facing your problems when they are ready to be faced is a good thing.
To let go is to be free.
Never assume.
Rain is a miracle.
Everyone hopes.
Wet shoes usually mean cold feet, until they get used to the temperature.
Improvement comes from the inside-out.
It's 'ok' to love, it just means you'll probably get hurt.
Most of the time it's just best to bite your tongue.
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, but you have to love yourself first.
That is all.

Easter

Take A Little Time: Take a little time my child, Stay right here with me.

Take a little time my child, The hasty often can't see.

Take a little time my child, And you will have all that you need.

Take a little time my child,And wait for the fruit of your seed.

Take a little time my child,And let me be your guide.

Take a little time my child,And under my wings you can hide.

For I am the Essence of Time,I am never early, never late.

So listen to me, the Essence of Time,

And do not be afraid to wait. -Anthony Gomez

Yeah so I thought that this poem was a super good one and just thought that during this holiday it would be good to remember what Christ is possible of.

I spent almost the whole morning and afternoon with God. I wanted to go on a date with Him and thought it to be appropriate. I miss spending one-on-one time with Him. I started to do stuff like that when I was at camp last summer and it really made an impact. I would read or sleep or just rest in His presence and I really enjoy it. But I did have a few visitors during my time with Him. But I feel refreshed, but still have some stuff to learn, obviously. I love dating Jesus! It makes me so happy. But I finished one book and almost finished another and just feel more prepared and more ready and more not so ready, y'know? Life is moving so quickly and I am ready for the curveballs, even though I kinda stink at baseball! But God is so good and I love, love, love spending time with Him. He makes me so happy. Life without Him would be so dark and cold and depressing. I really hope that everyone has Him in a real and tangible way, because I think that it's totally possible, even in it's smallest measurement. Spend time with Him, even if what you do is nothing. Because it's okay to do nothing sometimes and it's so, yeah. Y'know? Sorry, but I'm gonna say it again, I love God so much. He amazes me and teaches me and helps me through so much. I really hope that I never take that for granted. Well, peace fellow bloogers!

more nonsense?...

So, I had a funny convo with Luke and we were talking about how more girls call him now that he's engaged than when he was single. So Luke said, "Yeah nobody calls so-and-so because he's single." So me being the smart little bugger that I am said, "That's because he's supposed to do the calling." That is all.

a little bit 'o' nonsense

Falderrall and fiddley-dee, fiddley-faddley foodle, all the dreamers in the world are crazy in the noodle...
Impossible, for a plain, yellow pumpkin to become a golden carriage.
Impossible, for a plain, country bumpkin and a prince to join in marriage,
and four white mice will never be turned to horses.
Such falderrall and fiddley-dee of courses.
Impossible. Impossible.
For the world is full of zanies and fools, who don't believe in sensible rules.
Who don't believe what sensible people say.
And because these daft and dooey-eyed dopes keep building up impossible hopes.
Impossible, things are happening every day!

So, today was such a good conversational day with the Whit 2 guys. They are super fun and I have to say that I never imagined that I would love hanging out at the Whit tables when I joined the hall at the beginning of the year. I know that sounds harsh, but I think it also goes to show how much I have actually grown this year- alot. Definitely. I am having a marvelous time here and am so sad to be leaving, but so excited to get to culinary school this fall. My program starts in September or November (not sure which one I will do yet...still praying!) and will cost about $45,000 to go for 15 months! Mrr! Yeah, I know. Crazy am I and talking like Yoda, I am. =)
But, I am super excited and today I had some really good convos with the guys about relationships, boundaries, marriage, planning, all the stuff that guys usually don't talk about, well not in front of girls anyhow. But yeah. I am so blessed here and have some amazing brothers in Christ here. Surprises happen every day and I am so excited to be in God's Will! He is always throwing a curve ball my way! I love it though. Adventure and uncertainty. Not sure why I favor those things. It's gonna be a good next few weeks. Sad, but so good. Peace.

smack in the face

So things are going well. I didn't do too much this weekend. Watched a lot of movies, but I did get to hang out with some of the girls on the hall and Jen and I exercised this morning.
I do have to say that Jesus and I did quite a bit of heart work this weekend though. He showed me some things to change and helped me through some other stuff. It was totally good and refreshing and neat. Sometimes I totally forget, or avoid, talking to God about stuff and He is always reaching out and calling me when I do that. When I finally sit down and talk things through with Him or spend a good amount of time with Him, it is so good. I always wonder what's wrong with me that I don't go to Him right away, y'know? It's like saying, "I can fix my own stuff," but obviously not. Then you sit in His arms and talk it over and He listens and you listen and it's good. It's so good. Gah! I'm so human sometimes.

believe it

"My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are you ways My ways, as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways." Isaiah 55:8-9

Inside

This is an entry, well part of an entry, from my journal that I made the night Dez and I finished reading "Wild at Heart" which was so refreshing, good, and everyone NEEDS to read this book. I don't care if it's for guys, girls need to hear this stuff. You think I'm kidding... I'm not kidding...

March 15th, 2005- The Ides of March
"Lord,
I never realized how crazy it is to have to learn everything new. Learning when to eat, what the body can handle, when to go to bed, what to do with time, what things to say and not to say. I like adventure and the relearning. It stinks at times. It is super-humbling at times, but it is so good. I feel refreshed, even though I am really tired. I feel excited, even though I am tired. I am excited for the future and uncertainty. I am excited about forgiveness and mercy and love. The concept of hope and looking forward to Heaven......I am excited that You have, are, and will fight for me, even if there may never be a man on this earth who will. I know that there must be such men, men who long to rescue their damsel. I am content to be rescued by Jesus for the rest of my life, if that man never show up. Life is so precious. I am so grateful to be watched and guided by You, who not only carries the light, but IS the Light.....Thank You, Lord, for Your goodness, for the heart You've given me and for the gifts and talents. That even through my miserable existence, I can still be used and equipped to do Your Amazing work...."

This is for Jo and Dez....women, who are waiting to be rescued. I love you!

P.s. mrrmrrmrrmrr.blogspot.com

Couple's craze

So it must be mentioned that couples are suddenly, but expectantly overtaking the Briercrest campus...this is slightly alarming, but only because I spoke with one of my friends today and she said, basically, that life has not started because she doesn't have a bf yet. I wish she didn't feel that way.
New song: There's gotta be more to life...than chasin' down every temporary high, You satisfy me!
Now there's something to be running the life race for. The gun went off, and I am fully intending to run the race to the fullest of my capabilities, with the Love of my life beside me.
Friends! Do not be discouraged! Jesus loves you!

mrr.

I feel good...I knew that I would now, I feeeeeel good. I knew that I would, now.
So good! (dun dun) So good! (dun dun) I got You! (dun dun dun dun!)
So good! (dun dun) So good! (dun dun) I got You! (dun dun dun dun!) Wah!!!

Just wanted to let you all in on what's going on in my head...hope that's okay. =P

Back home

So I went home for mod week. It was interesting. I was privileged to share my testimony on the way down to Minnesota and met two really cool guys. One was Jamie. He was like a modern-age hippie basically. Believed in God, had some really nice things to say to me, but smoked pot. He was a vegetarian though, that made me happy! Then I met this guy Wadie, from France, his grandfather, who is 110, is the oldest man in Israel right now! That was cool to meet him. We chatted about baptism and he was struggling with wanting to be baptized but not wanting to be baptized. I was trying to encourage him to do it. But I don't know if I turned him off, I was very encouraging... Anywho. Being home was good. Good in the sense that I was able to overcome a few things that I had struggled with last time I was home. One of them being overeating and watching too much television, but with God's help I am healing and seeing my evilness. Y'know? My sister Laureen and I got tighter in the fact that I had some things to apologize for and things to be more honest about with each other. Too many things go unsaid, and they need to be faced and dealt with. So that was cool to be that honest with her. I may even go visit her for the last two weeks of her school year! I get out in 5 weeks, she in about 8! So that is something I am really wanting to happen! I also had the privilege to sit by, while Laureen talked to one of my older sisters about God and her current relationship with Him. So that was promising! I spent some quality time with my mom. It's still really hard for me to see her as a new Christian, but she is growing so much and as weird as this sounds, I am really proud of her and what she is doing with her life. It makes me sad, but not unhopeful, for my dad who I wish were at the same point as my mom. She has a ring she calls her engagement ring to God. I thought it was kind of funny that my mom is dating God and I already married Him. Y'know? I don't know if that sounds right. I got to see most of my sisters and both of my parents, so all in all it was a good trip home. Not restful. Very challenging, disappointing, and sad at some points, but there is always hope. I won't give up on that. This is super honest for me, so please be kind I guess. Much love to all of you, cause I am pretty sure I know everyone who reads this! Peace.