anywho...I had two lovely, God-filled young ladies stay in my trailor last night. I got to "take care" of them, sort of. It was fun playing hostess! But yeah, my good friend Hosanna called and she asked about them staying over, plus one guy, but he stayed at Toby's ...no way is a boy staying at my place unless he's a guy I am related to or is staying with me with his wife or I am his wife...lol! I crack myself up! But I think those are the only allowable circumstances to have a guy actually stay overnight in my trailor. Maybe if I'm not there...
Do you believe the rule that "rules are made to be broken" if so, does it apply to all rules or just some of them?
I found out what the word "pansy" meant today...not going to use that one anymore.
Okay...so one of the girls (Yvette) asked me what I liked best about living here at MBC. Here's what I concluded: no matter what I am going through I am learning something. I love how much I am learning about anything. I learned how to take care of a trailor in the winter, how to fix some stuff on a car, how to change a bicycle tire, how to drive stick shift, how to belay for wall climbing, I'm learning some new tricks on my skates...so much in terms of "outside myself" learning, but also internal stuff, like how not worry, how to let things go, how to love unconditionally. That's a good one. It's so refreshing knowing that even if you do something wrong a person who unconditionally loves you will let it go and move on. They aren't going to throw it in your face later or use as backstabbing collateral. I really like that and in some sense I love unconditional love. It brings peace. It's amazes me. It near makes me want to cry because I know what it feels like to receive it and I know how great it is to "pass" it out as well. It really is an amazing thing.
I guess this next piece is tied to the previous piece:
did you ever notice in movies that guys always go for the "amazingly hot" girl and leave the more "girl-next-door" friend at home? I just noticed this trend in movies, call me blind, maybe I am just acknowledging it now. It even happens in cartoons: Shark Tale (not worth seeing), Wives and Daughters, these are the only two I can think of right now... but, not to give girls slack, this happens to guys in movies too: 10 things I hate about you, 13 going on 30...etc. Granted there are movies where one friend is going for the other friend and that friend refuses them because it's a one-way feeling... Anywho, this isn't very well thought through now that I threw that in there...call it a cloud-clearing during processing... I don't know, in my own observational experiences and in what entertainment I've seen, the population tends to move toward the seemingly beautiful, but obviously depthless things, ppl, etc. Man, need to clear my head...ok, so they go for these things that are popping up when you least expect them to, almost to fulfill some need immediately, when right in front of them is what they've wanted/needed all along. Why is that? Why do we go for what we think we want/need when what we really need/want is right there? Are we just not aware of what we truly want/need? I guess that's why I pray that so much, "God give me what I need." because sometimes, you just aren't aware of what you truly do want/need. You know?
does any of this make sense? We are reaching out, grasping for money, people, things, ideas, dreams, that are not good for us and we give all that we are and all that we have to obtain it and than if and when we do get it, it's not what we want or need at all. Why? Are we just not willing to wait? Or we not patient enough? are we too patient? are we not putting in the work needed to get what we really need? are we not willing to put ourselves out there in vulnerability? (I s'pose that one has more to do with relationships, cause if you want a red Corvette...is there vulnerability involved?)
Here's my conclusion: we want the best and we can't recognize it when we see it, so we go for the cheapened and the useless.
Yeah, so that's it I guess, man I feel so...mrrr, now. Any comments?
2 comments:
sigh... yea, yea we do. Or maybe we're scared that the best will disappoint us.
i s'pose it is inevitable that the best will disappoint us if we think that it's perfect and without flaws. One girl I know has this list of all the things that are important to her for a future husband, well, she met this guy and he just happens to have all of those qualities. Some girls told her that she should run the other way b/c he is too perfect. But what's wrong with getting what you want if that is what God wants for you? Nothing. Not that I can see. But the point is to look at that person and know that they aren't perfect (that's what I told her). They still have flaws and will disappoint and hurt you, but they'll have the decency to make things right and they will love you through it all, the good, bad, and ugly. But such is life. The best will disappoint us sometimes, and that's ok b/c we knew the best wasn't perfect, and maybe they will think that we're the best and what will happen when we disappoint them? They'll keep loving us, cause we're the best. Now isn't that what the best should be? =)
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