coming to a conclusion...

It's 2:30am. I'm here in the office. I finished work about 30min ago and was curious as to who has updated, no one has. Interesting. I don't really feel like updating anymore, but I do. Does that sound rational at all? I'm completely sleep deprived, I know this. I'm at this p0int where things are piled on and I don't see an end to it. I don't feel trapped, but overwhelmed is generally an appropriate word. I've been thinking about life, generally my life and where it's going. Where is my life going? I've made a decision about college and am excited to start there (as long as when I apply, I get in.). I am confident that that is where God wants me and as far as what happens next January. Who knows?! I am excited for the adventure of moving to a new place and embarking on a journey that will basically kick my butt again. Though I love it here at the wonderful and beautiful MBC, I am content not to be entirely content here. If that makes any sense. I suppose what I mean to say is that I have to be honest with myself in admiting that I don't think I could be happy living here for the rest of my life. Though my circumstances, at present, are not the ideal, I do know this is where God wants me for now and am plowing the fields til I move on. It's good work and I am enjoying it. God is teaching me so much. I really love the flexibility and the way I can be creative as well. The whole time I was baking tonight (that's why I'm still here, perhaps I went overboard, but I made quite a few good-looking pastries, we'll see if they taste just as well, eh?), I was hoping that I could do this someday. That perhaps, the day will be soon and I can open up new doors and new opportunities to serve the Lord in this way. Not sure how He'll use it, but I know He will, He didn't give me this passion for nothing. Well, I will go drag myself off to bed now. Peace friends, until next time.

"Oh give thanks to the Lord, call upon His name; make known His deeds among the peoples. Sing to Him, sing praises to Him; speak of all His wonders. Glory in His holy name; let the heart of those who seek the Lord be glad. Seek the Lord and His strength; seek His face continually. Remember His wonderful deeds which He has done, His marvels and the judgments from His mouth. O seed of Israel His servant, Sons of Jacob, His chosen ones! He is the Lord our God; His judgments are in all the earth...For great is the Lord, and greatly to be praised; He also is to be feared above all gods. " -1 Chronicles 16:8-14, 25