Difficult Brain

Hey y'all!
It's prob been awhile, but hey, no worries!
I am here at home and things are alright. Looking for work, while working at Subway again! I start tomorrow at Subway! It should be fun, I am working with my old boss who is the bomb! So that's a huge blessing! I went to the Culinary Institute yesterday with my sister Laureen and friend Matt. It was really fun and I really like the place, yet I felt like I shouldn't have been there. Like I was lying to all the people I was meeting because they are expecting me to attend in July. I really would like to go there. I also am being blessed with a huge amount of financial aid from the government. There's this feeling there though like that's not where I am supposed to be, even though I thought that was where God wanted me. (Did I make a mistake? Or was God wanting me to apply and switch start dates to keep me from going to camp because that's not where He wanted me?) But if it is, than that is it. This is a career choice. If I do it, than I do it, full out and no backing out. I almost think I am just scared of the committment. But I imagine myself there and chatting with the people and working in that field, and I can see myself there. But I think I am also afraid of failing, like I will not do well. I don't know if it's nerves or what. But please pray for me, I need it badly right now, especially since I am supposed to start school in 6 weeks....mrr! Anywho, that's what is going on right now. I have a huge decision to make. So pray specifically for this, if I am to go there, that God provides: a peace about this school. That is the most important thing. If I was supposed to be there, wouldn't I have an unmistakable peace about this? I just want to obey Him. I don't want anything but to be where He wants me to be, but if I don't have His peace...than what? I know He has an amazing plan for me, one that I cannot even fathom, if this is part of it, than there would be peace wouldn't there be?
All those other feelings underline this lack of peace. Please pray with me about this school. Let me know if God relates anything to you too! That would be awesome!
Thank you for your support and friendship. They do mean so much!