Making the decision

I just finished watching "Alex and Emma." It was really good, one bad scene, pretty inappropriate. Won't watch it again, but good to see at least once, the message was good. (Lorne, you might like it alittle...talks about, more like meanders on, finding "the One", or the perfect wife.)....
Exciting! One of my poems made it to the semifinals for a poetry scholarship award and they want me to go to D.C. in August...probably won't happen, but sounds very tempting and fun! It is for "Ever So Quietly", a May 15th entry on my mrrmrrmrrmrr.blogspot.com blog.....
I got my hair cut. It's cute. I am learning how to be more feminine and had some fun dressing up last Sunday. I wore a skirt and this really cute blue top I bought (on sale! oh yeah!) a few weeks after I got home....
I will hopefully and very prayerfully be going to Nebraska next week for a week!!!!!!!!!!!!! At orientation last Saturday, the dean of students said, "these three weeks before school starts IS your vacation." So, I am going on vacation and am super, SUPER excited. I love Nebraska and the people there and I just love meeting God there. which reminds me...
I have almost successfully cleaned out my room..just a few more boxes to go through and move around. I have planned to open a space right by the two windows in my bedroom and put this bench in there (that I garbage picked when I was a spiffy-senior in high school! oh yeah! learned that from youth group! oh yeah!) and just be able to read. There's really nowhere in the house right now that me or my sister can go to just be, and it seems like the perfect spot. Right next to the sunshine, on a bench He provided, to just bask in His glory and His warmth and His creation while intellectualizing and washing myself in His past, present, and future, and learning more about Him. Those are just the blueprints of course, but I am excited to finish the project...
In other news: I am deciding to go to culinary school. My college group leaders' wife was talking to Laureen about going to Word of Life Argentina, and she said, "if God hasn't closed the door, than maybe you're supposed to walk through it." Not exact wording, but you get the picture. There have been nothing but open doors for me in this culinary thing. Seriously, I must be honest, not that I haven't been, but I am afraid of going. Not because of the schooling and all that, I am actually very excited. I was a weird kid in High school, I liked homework and projects...ooo..especially research papers..hmmm..anyhow. I am scared of doing a cruddy job of showing these people who Christ is. That's it, I guess. I know that God will work through me and that I have nothing to worry about, but I don't want to let Him down. I work so hard in my life not to let people down, not to get them disappointed in me, yet it happens. Yes, I am a bonafied people-pleaser. But, I want to please God above all and if it means going to culinary school and letting people know who I am in Christ, so be it, even if I fall flat on my face. I love Him and want to serve Him, and right now, that's the only way I know how. I just want Him, I just want His Will for my life.
TTFN. Thanks for listening.